Whines

I crawled slowly into my bed, put my hands together, closed my eyes and prayed. I said a little prayer to God, wondered whether... this time.. this time... will I get what I want..

I've tried to hold my tears, but I no longer can. I wondered why do I need to put up with all these. I have backpain, kneepain, uterus positioned forward, and... here comes eczema (Thank God, is only for a short period of time), added to my medical conditions. I hate pills, I hate greasy creams to stop all the ill-symptoms, I hate it all !! All previous treatments failed. Chiropractic, Burnt herbal patched on skin, icky stinky herbs to drink, hypnosis, streching methods, water treatment..whatever.. Doctors seem to think that they had "cured" me by prescribing pain killers. I don't get it.. They did'nt get rid of the pain, but only STOP the inflamation, the problem is still there!!!
Stop giving me PAINKILLERS... 

•                        Arcoxia    90 -120mmg
•          Cereblex   200mg
•          Poston     50-500mg

I am sorry liver or kidney..

I betrayed you.

I hope you guys are okay.

I dont think I can sign you guys up for organ donor.

And Mum, I dont see the reason I have to take these everyday..

• Evening Primose Oil
• Iberet Folic - 500mg
• Lady Secret Key (2sachets)
• Liver Guard *This I know why I need to take*
• Salmon Fish Oil
• Calcium tablets

It is because I have different skin rash all over my body, I have certain type of cream to apply it in certain area, sometimes, I applied wrongly because there is too much treament cream, and I forgotten which is for which... haha

• Elosone - for ezcema
• Ecocort - inhibits fungal growth
• Cetaphil - Rapid healing for skin damaged
• Pristinex - fungal infections

Sometimes, I had weird pre-mestrual cycle syndrome,so I am off to...

Fukole 150mg (Antifungal Agent) weak immune system

Supplements/vitamins, medicines. When I am free from all these?

When can I bend or straigthen up my back with no pain?

When can I lie down or get up from bed at times and dont weep?

When can I step up fleet of stairs and complain no pain?

When can I walk properly with no jerking movements?

When can I have a normal period with no monthly injections?

When can I not scratch my skin till it bleeds?

When can I wear sleeveless shirt when all dry-flaky skin are gone?

I may no longer run as fast I used to be..or have beautiful complexion..I dont mind anymore.. but what I demand is healing.. I want to go through my daily routine smoothly. So.. please, help me..will YOU?