Pit

There was a period of time, I found myself in a bottomless pit. Vicious cycles of self-blame/pity. There were moments of asking God, with prayers bouncing up to ceiling and disappear into thin air. There were moments of envy, anger, frustration, and desperation... where I craved for the approval of being accepted, being acknowledged, being treated genuinely. Days-to-weeks-to months of unreasonable mood fluctuations, to a point I questioned my presence on earth. Times when I felt the closest friends, parents, and my social support network couldn't help nor listen or even be there for me.

I asked God, "Where are you, will you listen to me, can you change me for the better?"

It wasn't a day miracle. I don't have Abraham's faith that can move a mountain. But I learnt that, the pit that I've landed into... the only way to climb back up is to look unto him. It may be hard, humanly is impossible, but with HIM, things are possible, because I have a Great God.

Still developing my faith, still in the process of healing,and in the process of transformation.

Can 2012 be a year of Celebration?Yes. I think. It will. Because I now know, God is walking the battle with me. Amen.