Searching for my best friend - Happiness

I can see you that you are drifting away from me.

I am blocking out all the rumors about you.

I touch the dusty bear I gave you. I held it tightly and wonder.. "Dear bear, are you as lonely as I am?"

I saw the the scrapbook I made for our anniversary, tucked under a stack of FHM magazines. Personal messages are no match for Attractive figures.

I put aside the To-Do-List with You, because I know this will only be a repetition of what you've done..

I gently put on the backsupport, no longer patches because it causes my skin to peel.I hope one day, we can go swimming together...as long as the chlorine dont burnt my skin..

I wore my sportshoes at home, luckly it still fits, I hope one day we play sports together, but who would want to play pass-the-ball with a half OKU?

I made a kite with an A4 paper with few satay sticks, I tied it to a string, lying on my bed, I wonder how it feels to really fly a kite.. I browsed through your pictures.. I wish I was there to share that moment with you.

Is time to take chinese medicine, I convinced myself that this bitter thing is like the Guai Lin Go we ate way back then at some shop in SS2, at least it brings back the sweet memories, it wont taste so bitter...

I learnt not to complaint, I realised it was only me who wants things to be done just the way it used to be..
I learnt not to ask so much from you, you like your own preferences anyway...
I learnt to smile and swallow my own tears, because.. it was only me who is trapped in my own shadow.

I am afraid... but I had to move on.. I must get out from my little comfort zone..I need to search for my best friend, Happiness. She is lost somewhere out there...

I need to find her, but how? Because I am lost too.....