Life is so fragile... Dont you think so?
Every split second, you dont know what is going to happen.
This thought, came to mind when...
Today, i looked at my new turtle which i bought just few days ago... Weird as it can be, it lay on that cold piece of rock. Still, lifeless. I feed it, change the water...Done my part as a responsible owner. Sadly, I guess it could not adapt to the new environment, cruel as it can be... God took that LiL creature away from me.
Life is full of unexpected...
I once thought that I, would'nt have any health problem. C'mon... Teenagers are always linked with the word "ACTIVE". Well, not anymore.
That night, i will always remember..
I strecthed just to take something dropped from my bed, immediately I felt the intense pain from my back. I lay down still, not knowing what to do. That night too, i coughed like crazy. The coughing made me bend my body, causing the sharp pain tripple times I could bare. My back damn pain, who is there to help me... I coughed too harsh till there is blood coming out. Salty can it taste. I dont know why, at the same time I was bout to vomit.
I cried.. I am scared... Where is parents when i need them?
Where are my friends who will calm me down?
Where is the Holy Almighty, did my prayers fail once again?
Stupid.. The crying caused my nose blocked & stuffed with mucus.
I was gasping for air, I cant breathe through my nose..
I cant breathe through my mouth, I was bout to vomit..
I cant get up, I cant tolerate with the pain of my back..
Still, I know my nerve touched the chipped bone. I did tears. I threw up. The pain haunt me once again. Why could'nt I be treated? When can I be like you? Run across the field, play sports and chase after the ticking time?
I envy those who smiled and run.. Yes, I do. Is a sin that I cant control.
Today, i knew bout the news of my grandma getting eye surgery. The percentage and risk of getting both eye blind. She is 89 this yr. Why God? Why you have to do this?
I cant help it, i cried when my grandma hold my hands..
Saying:" I m scared. If I am blind, I cant see you no more. Let me see you for the last time."
Who m I to console her? I too having same problems. I too having risk of unable to walk again if I were to go for the operation coming april.
God Where Are You?
I expect the unexpected...
I did'nt expect the unexpected..
I unexpect the unexpected..
I expect the expected...
What is all these?
1 comment:
Dear Stephanie,
Thank you for dropping by to my blog. I am sorry that i didn't reply earlier. i do believe i have seen you. If i am not mistaken you are from Trinity. Right? Sorry, if i am wrong. i saw your earlier question in my blog and today, upon reading your blog i can understand why you asked me the question about miracles. Before i answer your question, i would want to say that i am sorry that you are going through such a difficult time. I am sure the struggle is real & i pray that God will give you His peace even in a time like this. Stephanie, yes, there is such a thing as miracle healing. We don't have to go far, we need only to look at our bible. When Jesus was on earth he did many miracles; He even raised the death back to life. God can heal you, Stephanie. In this world, we face pain and suffering; our bodies also gives way and we experience death. These are all consequences of sin - when Adam and Eve sinned against God, sin entered mankind. As a result of that we experience the deterioration of our body. You may wonder, why does God allow diseases and suffering, especially in the lives of those whom He loves. I am sure Stephanie,that God must be hurting when He see you in pain. He is your Father, and as a Father His heart bleeds when you are in pain. You may also ask, what is God doing about what you are going through? sometimes, our suffering can blind us from seeing what God is really doing in our lives. I am not sure what is God's plan for you, but no matter what they are, i want you to know that He is right here beside you - carrying you in His arms of Love. How do i know this? Stephanie it is because of Jesus. On the Cross, when Jesus died, the Father saw His only son being broken and in pain. He allowed His Son Jesus to go through such pain to show us that Jesus is carrying in His body all our pain, sickness and suffering. It is like the Lord Jesus saying, 'daughter i know what you are going through because i have been in your place before. Look to me now, and you will see me carrying you through.' Stephanie, one day we will all die. Death comes to all of us. But, we can be assured that if we put our faith in Jesus now, we will be in a place where is no more pain and suffering. Stephanie, i want you to know that sometimes when we go through such "lonely moments" when there seem to be no one around us - God is right there carrying us. He says to you, "i will never leave you or forsake you." that is a promise. the next time you feel alone, i would like to encourage you to do one thing. Make this prayer: 'Lord, i know you are here. Show me your Presence.'Then let Him answer You in His own time and His own way. Praying for you, my dear.
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