A sad soul in a lonely night

Midnight, where everyone is asleep.

Only clock is ticking and the rhythm of my heavy breathing.

My hands trembling, shaking and sweating.

I cried once again, I admit..I am weak.

The intense pain of my backbone,makes me cry and moan.

Enough is enough.. The pain should go away by now.

Stop haunting and torturing me! Please go away.

I am tired of crying myself to sleep. sick of worrying.

I bared the suffer and pain..

I dont want to loose my legs.. Lord, please let me keep them.

I will appreciate what you gave me.

I no longer run, jump and climb. i sit and lie on the bed..

Isn't that enough?

一切都那么熟悉,

走在寂寞的街道,一步,两步,三步,四步...

数着,数着,痛有多深.

数着,泪流了.

数着脚步,数着疼痛.

走着数着,数着走着...

这是惩罚吗?

你在哪?在哪?

我疼.疼得想睡去.

就这样倒下去.闭上眼.

谁?是谁在说话?是谁背叛谁的诺言?

够了够了.

旋律还在走着.

它很好听,很好听.

我笑了.

笑自己的痴,自己的傻.

有谁听见那眼泪滴哒滴哒的声音?

有谁看见那正在破裂的心?

Mum, dont cry, I know u blame urself because of my condition,

Is not Your fault, is mine.. I try not to shed a tears at front of you.. Is hard I know..

I trying my best to force out a smile eventhough the pain is killing me.

I regretted for not listening to you. I am sorry..

I am stubborn, I refused to take the MRI & X-ray again..

I cant accept the fact. I dont want another bad news.. Is hurtfull. I am weak.

I cry because you cry. Mum, dont cry.. I am scared too. I dont want to be paralyse.

Hold my hand, we combat throughout this journey.

I promise I will smile..

Even if the hot medicine applied burnt my skin,

Even if the bitterness of the soup make me frowned,

Even if the intense pain attack me again and again,

Even if I no longer walk..

I will smile, I will hide my sorrows from you.. Just promise dont cry for me anymore.

我不是天使，所以我不在天堂。

我不是恶魔，所以我不在地狱。

我只是在人间走动着的一个孩子。。。

一路上我在走。。

一路上我在长大 。。。

累累伤痕。。

我长大了， 但付出了痛的代价。。

心里的伤痕， 只有自己明白。。。

始终不懂我的心。。。

始终不知道我在痛。。。

天亮了,

我不哭了.

但不哭是不是代表不难过?