Ox Ox Year, the worthy post.

People say The Ox year, a good year for those who born in the year of the HORSE. Ya meh? To think of it.. Not really, I FALL SICK DURING CNY !! Of all festivals (slam head against the wall) Grr. I cant eat what I want to eat. No fried food, Gassy Drinks, Grilled Pork (Ya Allah, ampunkan aku kerana I ngak Islam ya), sweets, Roasted chicken. I only eat Porridge, mee soup and rice with lauk-pauk yang Buek-Buek tak sedap. So far the i visited only my relatives. sick ma~

*kof-kof* Lets see, what i done so far eh?

I went out with Captain Jack Sparrow. Haha. 1pm we head to Sunway Pyramid. We did ntg there. We just walked around the mall like orang sesat. Did no shopping, movies or eating. All we had was a good laugh. I asked him to teach me to say "I love you" in Punjabi.

For girls to say their partner is Meh Tennu Pyar Kandi
For boys to say to their partner is Meh Tennu Pyar Kandar

I laughed so much because I said Meh Tennu Pyar Pandi. For those who dont know what pandi is.. Pandi means PIG. So, directly i said I LOVE PIG. hahaha.

We went to Curve after that at round 330pm, ate McD then booked a ticket movie. Ink Heart. Ok, its because I still sick, i drank alot of water, which makes me kept going to the toilet. C'mon, the movie just started like 15mint, then I felt that I had the urge to go toilet. man~ I don wanna miss any part of the movie, So i tahan till the whole movie ended. The I WANT TO GO PEE-PEE thought kept bothering my interest in watching the movie. Tsk Tsk.
After that, we head to 1u to buy Cough Med only Balik.

Ok, I've been like a drug *cough mixture oni la* tester. Finfing information bout various type of cough and suitable cough mixture to prevent it. Wet cough and Dry Cough. I supposed mine is Dry cough. For Wet cough, you need cough mixture that contains EXPECTORANT. For Dry Cough is Antitussive. Cautions, Antitussive can be quite addictive, therefore is better to get those that contains dextromethorphan. Some info to share. Not all cause I malas to type.

I tried Rhinathidiol, this mixture is for Dry cough, rather addictive as it tasted more like vanila.
I tried Cough Med prescribed by Doc, not effective enof as it does'nt have the drowsy effect.
I tried Bena Expectorant for wet cough, Drowsy but need consumed lot of water.
I tried Linctus, for Dry Cough. Drowsy, makes heartbeat faster. (Still Testing)

Hmm, I am dangerous huh? Nah~ Desperately wants to recover. Thats all.

Oh ya. Hehe I registered MUET Exam with Mun teng (^^)
I picked her up at Taylor College then off we go to Shah Alam for registration. Funny, Register kat Shah Alam, tapi Exam+Workshop kat Subang. Pelik. We went there, only we realise we forgot ALOT OF THINGS. Our spm certs, photostated IC, Letter with stamps, Wang Pos.. Haiz, So after we filled up the MUET form we head to Komplexs PKNS for the Pos Office. Grr. So long we waited. After the whole DING-DONGess. We settled our stuff only balik rumah. Well, thats for all. Long Post I made. Happy CNY readers. I wonder if people reads it.

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year
Man, it surely sucks to the MAX to be sick. Especially during Chinese New Year !
I gonna miss all the delicious food out there !
Hope i can well soon. I mean A.S.A.P.

Read it because I really mean it..

For those people including friends, family, loves one. This post is for all of you.
I am not being emo, its hard to tell out, so i rather type it..
Expressing all my thoughts and feelings to a computer which wont show pity on me.
I dont need people's pity, but i do need their time to listen. Is it very hard?

I know my condition well enough, my backpain have been torturing me for days.For days, the pain get more intense until I felt so defenseless as I only know how to collapse and cry. My upper leg somehow at times got affected to.All i can question is.. Where is Siew Tim? The one that is active, optimistic & Happy-go-lucky. My spirit of living give up on me and Is my body giving up on me as well?
I dont think I can take it much longer. I am not strong enough. I dont shed tears at front of you because I dont want people think that I am weak. I am regret for not doing few things.. I havent learn how to swim, havent try climbing mountains, havent had enough playing my favourite sports. No way.. God please dont take away what I have..

The doctors threw me the big decision to make which I decide my pathway having 50/50 of risk to take in order to cure my back, some of my friends labelled me as the "backproblem" girl, my family can only see my enduring all this nonsense I going through.
The doctors dont seem to give me any solutions. Each alternatives will have effect and unbearable risk.
My parents argue, blaming each other is their fault I have this kindda condition. Worst still, please dont divorce when I really need both of you now..
My friends can only listen to my sorrows, but they are not angels who can cast my troubles away.
The beloved ones, you dont understand me sometime. You make me sad.

Why am I crying now? My vision is so blur. My chest hurts so much. Nobody can help me now. God where are you? The bible say God wont let His children suffers! Where are you? Are YOU leaving me too? Everybody is leaving, but why cant the pain leave too? I want everything to stay,not my pain and tears..

I dont think I have any to loose. I learn lots of stuff i think. I guess I shall go for the surgery. Even the chances of getting paralyse is there, even I know worst come to worst I only can tears and blink my eyes where my body is not moving anymore. I might go for it. If only time permit me to think more. Will miracle happens?

Doctor? Can I have a request? If the surgery went wrong, can you just end my life? I dont want be a burden to others. At least give me my sense of dignity and respect.

To all people, I am sorry if i hurt you before. I love every one of you. Live life to the max.

是我没有信心,还是我认识了现实?
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂倔强说不痛
假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
我正在找一份答案，但，我哪里能找的到？我绝望，我无助，我悲伤，我心痛！
人说幸福是短暂的。但我觉得它并不短暂，只是幸福的日子会比平常过得快。

Events of the DAY

Today's Event.. TADA~

Sell Books
Today it was actually quite fun. I sell my books with my SAMian buddies & earn some profit.

Commercial/Movie Shooting
I went for some commercial shooting for DIGI. Commercial shooting is the best suited word *Teehee* I was told to act surprise and jealous at one scene.
It goes like this..
Firstly i will be in the car, i only get down the car after Alan give me the signal. After receiving the signal, i get down the car and some random fellow will bump into my friend and asked if she is Samantha. After Sam nodded her head, this random fellow will say:"Oh, your bf requested a song for you" Later, bunch of DIGI CELEBS will come singing, I will gotta act amazed and jealous. Gosh, they sang so long. I had to kept acting so DRAMATIC. I was partially stonning. Haha. I went complaining in the scene saying my bf was'nt as nice as her's. Haha.. Funny. All went natural, as there were no rehersal. Cool right?

Well, despite all this enjoyable moments happened. I had conflict with someone else too. It was rather sad, however.. I guess what *a-hem* (Not gonna mention the name) did and reacted today trully hurt my feelings.

Tomorrow is my IELTS TEST. May God Bless me --> Amen.

Some Pictures from the recent hangout with friends

PS: Tomorrow I am having IELTS SPEAKING TEST. *Gulps* And I am blogging. Damn, I am so nervous. Pray that I will do well man! --Amen. (@-@) So scared. Okie, i shall go prepare now.

College Friends.. At Look Out Point

Hey G9-ians. I will never forget you all. Love and kisses (^^)v

This typical picture was taken in Wei Nian's Car. Hahaha

The *Ah-Ma* & Son. (Jaime & Wei Nian)

The pictures below was me hanging out with my girl friends. Can you believe we took these pictures in centerpoint girl toilet? Why you guys have to take it in the toilet? Oh well.. I just gotta join in.. (-.-)''

Huh?! (^-*) Sorry Michelle, I blocked you. Haha

Ok, a decent one. Farha (Left), Michelle, Casandra (with Spects), me and Zenny

Hey, see this picture, I got my lens clearly snapped. Haha..

My Limao Lamemo Day

You know what ..i just wana highlight few stuff that happened. 1stly announcing Now is 2009 !. New Year New Begining. I got few New Year Resolution (n.a) *teehee*

For the sake of Syok Sendiri-ness i bought contacts lens. Hazel Brown (^^)v is not because I got problem with my eyesight. My vision is Perfect. But i bought out of randomness. And Man, is SOOooOO not nice. The 1st time i wore, i need like 45minutes per eye. Man! Is like C'mon,the lens is gonna get in.. Then.. (Flop) OOOoouuchhh I poked my EYEBALLS. My eyes were tearing. Finally after a long strunggle only i managed to wear one side.

Then the other side.

Cool brown Hazel Eyes.

Okay a worth while memory. The painful experience of Poking, Touching, Squeezing the eyeballs.

Did i tell u i suffered from career crisis. I had to make my options to get into which Uni I want, and what course I want to take. Gosh, i had insomia man! 3days 3night of thinking drained me out of shape. urgh! After i had counselling from My dad's friend whom is a doctor. I finally choosed to go for child psychologist. After a long talk to him. The options like Dietician, pharmacy, chiropractic.. He explain each of these career pathway detaily. Most important is what the salary earned get my attention. Haha. Moreover, he worked in Glean Eagles Hospital, so if i were graduated in child psychology, i will definitely get my job well paid. Haha.

IELTS.. Tsk Tsk. I guess since i edi took in i shall make use of it, study hard and get into IMU and Take Another Muet Paper. Actually if i go HELP no need IELTS. so FRUSTRATING.

HEHE.. Wen Jie is back from S'pore. Like.. Finally..

ps:To a special someOne

Hey Do u know i really miss you?

我不想回想　也不想再繼續的講

越想越覺得有點勉強 如果你也是這樣想 再多的語言也都是敷衍

怎麼你忘了將心帶來 你的心底可否有我

明明愛你的我　對你很執著 　

相愛以後覺得可再愛多久 　

就算你留下遺憾的遠走 　

思念是　不痊癒傷口 　

就算我哭也不會被憐惜 　

我的痛你不會懂

我不想回想　也不想再繼續的講 越想越覺得有點勉強 你的心底可否有我?